Austin Improv

i will speak to this issue nigh here on out.

beardedlamb wrote:i will speak to this issue nigh here on out.

I don't even understand. Jastroch, are you updating your list?

i will say no more.

Craig - i love what you wrote - i love your realness - its so nice to get to know people better. you're nice and generous and cool for sharing your thoughts and feelings. i think eveyone knows you (and Jeremy) are awesome times 10 and all the other stuff you said..you both deserve lots of props and i'm excited to see you perform more..also reading these back and forth posts - phil and kareem - you made me laugh out loud....thank you! i also like what jeremy said..about foot shooting...i'm good at that..i think at this point how i am doing as an improviser has more to do with my mood than skills or anything else..if i'm feeling strong and liking myself and feeling safe, happy and connected in my group..i'll improvise a lot better than if i start a show thinking i suck and eveybody hates me. ya know? as far as skills..i have the rest of my life to grow and improve as much as i can for as long as i can. on the awards topice - thank you - everyone for being nice to me and val about this - espcically the peeps who are less than thrilled with the awards stuff, we appreciate you not hating us! jastroch said lots of good stuff about this.. i mean..we shouldn't take any of it too seriously - unless you win. then you should definately take that seriously! : )
love love love chocolate pecan pie love improv

Goddamit Rachel, stop being so nice.

fuck you

: )

shando wrote:

beardedlamb wrote:i will speak to this issue nigh here on out.

I don't even understand. Jastroch, are you updating your list?

My list is updated. I'll post it tomorrow.

psh, everyone in this scene is incredible.

Can't we just organize a monthly AIC hug?

Monthly hug? How Socialist.
What's next, free ice cream for everyone or something?

Though my troupe has gotten some recognition, individually I've sometimes felt left out- getting a nomination only for an entirely un-improv award, not being invited to guest play with other groups too much (outside of my whole troupe)... but I've gotten over it. And putting a lot of my time and effort into these awards over the past few weeks has made me almost entirely unaware of whether people like me or not, becuase I have been devoting my attention to making sure other people know how much they're liked. When I focus my energy entirely outward, on sending out love, rather than on trying to draw it in, it surrounds me and I can't feel unloved, because I just bask in the glow of everyone else. And this is the same principle at work in a good improv scene, troupe, or community- the more you send out support and love and focus on what the other people need, the less you worry about yourself, and the better everyone feels. If anyone is feeling unloved, the best thing to do is send out the love you have for other people, which is the reason I wanted to do awards in the first place. And there is much more love to come.

I just got an email from Valerie informing me that I am liked.

It's a good feeling.

I don't care what's on any list anywhere.

Personally, I think as an Improvisior I make a pretty good clown. - I started taking classes to work on Clown skills and I think my clown skills sometimes get in the way of my stage work.

I think I'm one of those people who is only getting better because of experience, not natural talent. Which sucks, because as much as I enjoy playing, I really don't have the time to work on my skills the way I'd like to.

I actually had an interesting experience. A few weeks ago I did an experiment on stage that totally didn't work - the scene (solo of course) totally bombed. But for some reason I felt really great about letting my self play and fuck the consequences. Sometimes I get so intimidated by all of you brilliant people that I try way to hard to look cool and end up just being a bit pathetic. So in a weird way I felt that doing a stinker of a scene was really helpful. Like it let something loose. Someday I ought to do my birthday party act for you all. I feel like I am a very good clown, honnestly.

Jessica

shando wrote:

beardedlamb wrote:i was referring to back in the day when people were doing the 'awesome' posts. i felt better when the award nominations came out. and i'm trying to cheer up the craigus with shared pain.
i will speak no more to this issue.
beard.

There will be more awesome posts. And yes, Craig and Jeremy, I know what you're talking about.

It's kind of weird, and I know I'm late, but I feel kind of the same way. It's like I died when I left.

There was only one AIC awards that I might have been eligible for any nominations, and I didn't even get one. That kind of made me sad. It would have been nice to have been recognized for the eight years of work I'd done before I left.

I don't know. Reading over this, I realize it sounds incredibly bitchy, but my feelings were a little hurt.

Also, when people were talking about how great OoB was, there was a lot of praise for Shannon and Jeremy (and deservedly so...for very, very reals), but I felt again like I'd died and no one remembered that I was around during the not-so-sexy months of the festival, when Shannon and I were writing grants and trying to get sponsors and such.

I love you all, but I kind of felt like I had to get this out there.

Mike, try having started the damn AIC and not gotten an award. : )

I will print out and give to both of you a "Most Likely To Be Badass So They Shouldn't Need A Fucking Award To Remind Them Of Their Badassness" award.