And in all fairness, my parents DO have love for me. That doesn't excuse the behavior, but they are like a rabid dog - infected and dangerous but don't know it and it's up to me to draw boundaries and protect myself from getting bitten.
I've done a lot of transformational and personal development workshops and inner/spiritual work and practices. I constantly work on keeping my focus forward as I complete on the past. Some methodologies only focus forward and ignore the past, but I have found that until it's ceremoniously buried and grieved over, it keeps reappearing in different forms. "What you resist persists. What you can be with will let you be."
In spite of all the past stuff, I would say that other than some occasional reticence in certain situations, (for some reason I am still not my usual outgoing self off the stage in the improv scene but can still come across as shy), I am confident and grounded in who I am. I can definitely use my experiences to help guide others in their personal journey.
Grounded improv can actually be a powerful tool. NOT a substitute if someone truly needs therapy, but it can help you be with so many things. I did a lot of it with a friend who is a local indie film maker and teaches private acting lessons. Probably no one you've heard of, but he is also a powerful intuitive and life coach and brings that to his classes to help take you places where it's hard to tread. One of the most powerful breakthroughs I had was a grounded improv scene where I was coached through being with anger. Heh... I probably could use more exercises in that area.
But anyway, I am rambling and must get back to work. I am so loving the Austin improv scene and haven't even been around much. I truly hope I am able to take this far enough to get to play with some of you for reals!!!